Jeremiah Wong, Friend?Partner?Best Friend?

That day my friend King birthday and my another friend birthday also name Melvin. Melvin I not really know much about him just know we meet each other while we drink... King birthday the girl sister of Melvin ask me go make some announcement that King birthday in this 12am, so I ran to the DJ station there and ask him help me announce that my friend King is birthday, then another friend ask me to get 1 Flaming Lamborghini for the birthday, so I ask the price then hope we 2 can share because I can't spend much money I still need to survive the half month... So after order actually I really wanna tread my friend because I didn't bring any present to him, so at the end I ask Andy I will handle this bill. We happy at last and he down already haha because keep push him to drink lol. But still have some bad stuff happen that make me not happy while the party is end. Then I drive back home and park inside the car park and I keep searching is there any notice that say do not park here, and a Malay women talk to me that this parking is available? So I say don't know but don't have notice also I think should be ok, and she say will stay on her car for a while to make sure about that. So reaching home take a bath and on my FB while my hair still wet then what I see is have 1 chat awaiting me to reply.... When I open it and I saw a guy that is we break up our friendship last 2 year ago... I wonder why he wanna chat to me? Here is what he wrote " Hey, just wanna apology for that time didn't care about your situation and there is some fault on me. Just drop by and say I'm sorry..." After I saw this message my first word come out from my mouth is " WHAT THE FUCK " and I keep repeating 5 time at lease that time I have alcohol in my blood so my action is quite aggressive a bit... Actually I don't know what happen what to do or what to say except WTF, I'm the one who should say sorry to him, but I keep my position very clear i will not say sorry to you because I know it is useless even my another friends name Janet try to pull us back, but I tell her, if he can forgive me I also can't forgive myself that's all and we are never ever getting back together by Taloy Swift lol... Maybe the time have wash away what I hate him and myself, so I think more simple and open already, so I reply to him and say " actually I'm the one who should say sorry to you... Anyway we both also have our mistake..." Then I ask him out for a drink and chat why what how when etc... The. What today I saw his blog he say that he really angry me, ya I agree what I did last time it is totally not myself, I feels like living in the dump trash life... Ya seriously on that time before I come to KL and before get the hell training in Eduspec, I'm very very ' Self Fish, not responsible, no manner, give up easily, and even make all people around me also really very freking crazy horrible HATE me... Ya I admit that the person before i'm getting the hell training... O well that time already pass and I want to live my new life so I forget a lot bad stuff and try to change myself back to good person and say no to all bad stuff that I wanna do. After 2 year, yay I'm change a lot I know, I become more open and friendly but still have some bad stuff I haven't try my best to delete it... But I sure I will delete it. Back to topic...... This guy I can say is my best friend on that time, because we chat our secret to each other, play together, tired together, and sometime dying together... Hey don't think wrong not the XXX -.-!! He the one who brought me to KL and start new life in KL, he the one who help me when I need help, he the one who will stand and fight for me if I down... Ya this guy really not bad right? But I don't appreciate him on that time what I think is I can rely on him, then slowly I almost become a pussy that always rely on him... Poor me... But wait I'm not the always wrong ok? First time I always need to wait him every time promise on time but always late, second always scare lot of shit I wonder why... Third I hate him...... Forget already so long already what I hate him already forget... Why? Because keep thinking the people negative stuff only make your life worse, so? Why should I continue to think what he did to me? Ya true I haven't say I'm sorry to him, so at here I will say I'm very sorry what I did last time, I admit what I done last time it is totally my personality problem, hope my new change new style new personality you will accept it. I'm sorry my friend Jeremiah Wong.