Promise? XXXX OFF

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Really I do care too much until forget who am I! Never mind I will do what I should do now and of course I will learn not to care too much and give back myself freedoms, don't know why I'm so angry when I hear that news, but still if lie to me I might become very angry and unforgivable, lucky let me know early without lie on me, tell me the truth better that lie on me, because I do really hate people cheat on me! And second is already promise but can't deliver I'm also very angry but not much that people who cheat me to! Fine, I should let my self cool down and not to think too much because its not of them business! All is about me, I mad myself because really do care too much, I hate myself because fall into the abyss still don't want to climb up, I scold myself because keep don't understand other people feeling, if I don't understands people feeling how they understand me? I curse myself because keep on doing those not worthy stuff that always harm me hurt me even stab myself! Anyhow this is my body myself I will not let you all control me! I will do what I want to do, I don't xxxxing care how you guys see me, I tread myself as I love myself, I harm myself as I hate myself and is all non of your business! I'm selfish? Yes of course! Human is selfish animals! And I'm one of them, I don't care how my health will be I don't care how the world see me I don't care is worthy or not I don't xxxxing care anything! All I know is I will not trust anything even myself I also don't believe what I'm doing and saying! What kind of xxxxing promise? Why I must promise to deliver what I do already promise! Promise also able break then what use is the promise? Fine then, promise just a word came out from mouth not for heart, and it also no need 100% deliver it to do that promise I make! Ya, promise I can say that always but if want me to do? Wait until I have the feel to do it or else don't hope I will deliver any promise I made! Because its not worthy to trust me and believe me that I'm a good xxxxing guy and I don't want to be what kind of good xxxxing guy anymore! Because no one will truly understand who am I!